Thoughts

:It is the thought that counts: How true can this be? I have a lot of thoughts going in my mind. If it's not expressed out and how can it be counted? Every night, before i go to dreamland, I will be thinking of certain things. It's not only during the period before i goto sleep but whenever i'm starring into space, these thoughts are the ones that are writing it's own script in my head. Most of the time I'm ok with these thoughts and actually quite happy about it. But then, there will also be times that I will get very depressed about these thoughts. There is this time where i followed a friend to bandar. Then when we were heading back KB, i was sitting at the passenger sit and 2 couples were sitting at the back. I only looked at them for ONCE. I looked back because I was trying to ask them a question. It was a bad mistake to do so. The moment i saw them, I was speechless and I just felt awful. Thinking back to see certain scenes that couples are close and lovely doing sweet things, this really makes me sad. I will then ask myself when will I be the one doing those things. :Time heals and time holds the answers: This is true but how long can do we need to stay alive to be able to get the answer and get healed?

I've given up. Thats to make it sound good - "given up". The bad way to say this is - "Stand no fucking chance" I don't force love to come nor i force it to go. Given up dun mean dun mean dun like/love/admire/fancy about. I always let things come into my life naturally and letting them go by their own choice. Make this short, Let it be. Comes and Goes. Don't push it. Only do something about it when it arrives.

Have loads in mind and for now, little to share. Why? Cause I can think of alot of things and when i try to share them out here, I tend to forget majority of them. I need a live blogging device which allows me to drop down my thoughts instantly.

~*End of post & continuing with life*~